A Beautiful Nothingness by firebird1423, literature
Literature
A Beautiful Nothingness
A Beautiful Nothingness
Shorlty follows a Deep Emptyness
To tell you the truth I don't know which is worse.
Nothingness is the deep pit in your stomach,
breath before the big storm.
Emptyness is the knowing there is no end,
no begining,
nothing here,
nothing there,
no bottom,
and no top.
Just a constant falling into the drowning seas,
which is worse than everything put together.
That's why it's Beautiful.
The phone rings
He picks up.
Al, what?
In his tired, sleepy voice.
I missed you.
I choke out.
The line is silent.
You do realize it's 3 am?
And we have school tomorrow?
He puts his hand over his eyes.
Yes, I squeak.
But I missed you.
I missed your eyes.
I missed your voice.
Your lips,
Your smell,
Your hair,
Your presence,
Your body,
Your mind,
Your touch,
Your smile,
Your everything.
I missed you.
The line is silent again.
I'm here for you.
He says sweetly.
Thanks, I whisper.
His snoring echos on the line,
And all around me and my room.
And soon my eyes close.
I'm finally asleep.
My head spins.
My stomach churns.
My legs, jelly.
My toes, cold.
My heart, torn.
The rain pellets.
The lightning strikes.
The thunder rolls.
My hair dampens.
My eyes clouded.
My throat throbed.
My hands, numb.
My heart, torn.
The rain pounded.
The lightning whipped.
The thunder chrashed.
I hoped...
The rain melted my body,
And washed me down the sewers.
Flowed out to the ocean,
Where I would become a wave,
Be ridden into land,
Evaporate into nothing.
See nothing,
Feel nothing,
BE nothing,
Forever.
Mixed up
Matched up
Shook up
Fucked up
Misplaced
In a Daze
Going There
Coming Here
Running
Walking
Stopping
Waiting...............................
Rush
Touch
Kiss
Bliss
Move
Groove
Hating Class
Brakong Glass
Color Me Purple. . .
Color Me Pink. . .
Color Me Greenish
Yellowish
Brownish
Redish
Orangish
Indigoish
Black
Color Me any Color. . .
Pick any color for Me. . .
And that will be the Color
I want to be. . .
Driving into Nothing
Rain Storms Down
Coldness Billows Around
Like a Shield of grey, Fog
Springs of Colors, Wet Leaves
Bleak Browns, Cropped Feilds
I wish You were Here
You could hold Me Tight
And tell Me things will be Alright.
The skin of some one looked smooth in the pale moon light.
The skin of some one smelled of a bunch of apples.
The skin of some one tasted of sweet chocolate.
The skin of some one felt of silk.
The arms of some one rapped around me like a sheild.
The body of some one, who lay next to me, felt safe.
Must you taunt me ever so boldly
Must you pretend to ignore me, ever so
Must you walk ever so slowly
Must you talk ever so sweetly
Never to me or for me, but always with me
... in my sight
Must you stand there ever so proudly
Must you wait there ever so patiently
Must you hate me ever so kindly
Must you love me ever so quietly